Straight from the heart :)

I hope that some day, you find an amazing girl. The kind of girl who means everything to you and makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her. The kind of girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about her beautiful smile, and when you finally fall asleep, she’s all you dream about. I hope she’s the first thing to cross your mind when you wake up in the morning. I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand, yet you know it`s for the better. I hope she’s the kind of girl you would die for. The kind of girl who could make you cry, even though you’d never admit it. The kind of girl who makes you want to go out and do something special, something that means everything to the both of you. The kind of girl you can have silly fights with, then kiss and make up and hold her in your arms like you`re falling in love all over again. I hope you make memories with her you never forget. I hope she’s your world, and what you have with her is nothing less than perfection. And I hope that one day, you lose her. I hope you mess up and as hard as you try to keep her there with you, she slips through the cracks of your broken heart. I hope it destroys you, because you realize you’ve lost the person you once called your everything. I hope you see every moment you spent together spin away down the drain like it was waiting to happen. I hope you stay up at night because she’s on your mind and when you fall asleep, she haunts your dreams. I hope her beautiful smile stays pressed in your mind like a scar that won’t fade away. I hope you realize that you’re a new person because of her, I hope your new self feels incomplete without her and you miss the old you. The one that was okay with being alone, because you’d rather be the heartbreaker than the heartbroken. 

Who's broken?

 I am now in healing some wounded soul and broken heart...
Oh yes I made mistakes, did the wrong decisions of my life, I've hurted a lot of innocent individuals... You may think of me as a murderer or a greedy ass of a terrorist but oh well it's not like that..
Sometimes in our lives we have to make some sacrifices in order for us to be happy... I have to admit I have been happy but I know it was wrong, it was really REALLY wrong....

I admit I was such a selfish, self-centered lass who thinks of nothing but herself... I know the consequence by then I still gone far...
Some turn of events were indeed unpredictable and I have to admit it was beyond my control and it brought worse circumstances... I feel sorry but to all the people whom I've hurted but actually inside of me I did not regret everything from my past because I was ready for it. and mostly I was then happy for it... Shall we say I became responsible on what I have entered.. Although it was not a good decision after all but whatever I am going through right now perhaps I'll just take it as another trials to trudge on and look positively on the future...

Emotions Out pour 2

There are things in life that don't go our way.
The hell out of it. Some people say, hey that's life.Cheer up! Yeah right. It's easier said than done.
In these past few weeks, life became so blue.. so dark.. so fetch ^_^  damn I hate it. I keep on asking why oh why have things to be like these. You put on your efforts but destiny is still trying to find ways to fail you. Maybe somewhere out there some things are meant for you or maybe it's not yet my best. I really don't know.
Everyday life is just all about choosing either to be grateful or to be disappointed. You can worry to no end about what you don't have. Or you can marvel at God's breathtaking gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds.

The answer lies on me alone.But for now I feel being so stuck in the middle.

By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

Love is like a narcotic. At first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. The next day, you want more. You’re not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you think you can still control things. You think about the person you love for two minutes, and forget them for three hours. But then you get used to that person, and you begin to be completely dependent on them. Now you think about him for three hours and forget him for two minutes. If he’s not there, you feel like an addict who can’t get a fix. And just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you’re willing to do anything for love.

Life is...

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.-Meredith Grey (Grey's Anatomy)

Status Checked

Status checked:

• Single
• In a relationship

Being single?
Often labeled lonely because they are alone. Definitely not with what I can see to my friends. I can see that they are much contented with their lives.Definitely a single status is like a declaration of independence.Just like:

• You can go out with the girls anytime you want,with no one tailing behind you or telling you what time you should be home.
• You can enjoy shopping as much as you want,without a goofy guy being bored to death and convincing you to buy items you do not want just so you’d go home and finish your stuff.

• You can have real peace, no arguments! Definitely!

So what if you are single. When you are happy about it then definitely it's a precious price to pay to achieve contentment. Why rush things up? I guess, it's better to work on yourself first, love and experience being alone than jumping into a commitment with completely offering a dead-end.

In a relationship?
Being in love is a dream that comes alive when we meet someone we really love. It's like we are reading in a semi-dark, empty room. You were actually contented because you were actually reading your most favorite book.Suddenly, someone's knocked at your door and made your heart skip a beat. Turn on the lights and realized why I did not do that before? It was because you were busy reading the pages which actually is the book of your life. You never noticed that life would be much interesting and brighter if someone came along and made you think you are NOT. You became happy being someone but things will not be the same and so you start wishing you never really jump into this ; however good or bad you feel about your relationship, the person you are with at this moment is the "right" person, because he or she is the mirror of who you are inside.

Realizations hits me squarely on my face, it was never important about finding and losing because love is not merely a status. It is just a six-letter word that defines but not totally expressed of what you feel. You may become single but well-loved or taken but broken, you may be single and alone or taken but contented. Love is a matter of being contented and happy not about yourSTATUS.

Single ladies, put your hands up in the air. Ditch more boys like they ditched you. Live life.

Emotions Out pour

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses,you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can  hurt  you,then one person, no different from any other person,wanders into your stupid life... you give them a piece of you...They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day,like kiss you or smile at you,and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you.It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should just be just friends turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts.Not just the imagination.Not just the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

Unlike any other..That's what I thought about you but why it has to be this way. This pain inside me is like a piece of scalpel excising my very vital organs.I wish it couldn't hurt like this.But it is. It cripples me to death and yet I found myself surviving

Tears running through my cheeks.Emotions out poured. Wish I could find ways to forgive you especially forgive myself.D-a-m-n-! Wish . Hope. Solitude.It is.

PINK:A color or an attitude?

PINK.is absolutely my favorite color.Not because I consider myself as "kikay", "pa- uso" and  stuff but I just feel so at ease when I'm wearing PINK and when I see lots of pink stuffs, it really brightens up my morning aura up to noon, twilight til night (how's that huh?)
Pink is a softer, less violent red. Pink is the sweet side of red. It's cotton candy and bubble gum and babies, especially little girls.

Nature of Pink:

While red stirs up passion and action, studies have shown that large amounts of pink can create physical weakness in people. Perhaps there is a tie-in between this physical reaction and the color's association with the so-calledweaker sex.

Culture of Pink:

In some cultures, such as the US, pink is the color of little girls. It representssugar and spice and everything nice. Pink for men goes in and out of style. Most people still think of pink as a feminine, delicate color.

Using Pink:

Both red and pink denote love but while red is hot passion, pink is romantic and charming. Use pink to convey playfulness (hot pink flamingoes) and tenderness (pastel pinks). Multiple shades of pink and light purple or other pastels used together maintain the soft, delicate, and playful nature of pink. Add strength with darker shades of pinks and purple and burgundy.

Interesting information about pink

• In 1947, fashion designer Elsa Schiaparelli introduced the color "hot pink" to western fashion. She dubbed the shade "Shocking Pink," though today the color is more well-known as "magenta."

• Pink encourages friendliness while discouraging aggression and ill-will.

• Since the color pink is said to have a tranquilizing effect, sport's teams sometimes use pink to paint the locker room used by opposing teams.

• Some studies of the color pink suggest that male weightlifters seem to lose strength in pink rooms, while women weightlifters tend to become stronger around the color.

• Pastries taste better when they come out of pink boxes or served on pink plates (it only works with sweets). Pink makes us crave sugar.

Pink as a signature color

• Pink: Known for her punk rock appearance, Pink is a talented singer-songwriter.

• Carrie, Sex and the City: This fictional TV character, portrayed by Sarah Jessica Parker, loves fashion and frequently dresses in pink.

• Elle Woods, Legally Blonde: Played by Reese Witherspoon, this fictional movie blonde loves everything pink.

Companies or brands identified with pink

• Victoria’s Secret

• Pepto-Bismol

• Mary Kay

• T-Mobile -- The Magenta "T" is easily recognized as the symbol for T-Mobile

• Thomas Pink -- With a wonderful reputation for the finest luxury shirts and accessories, Pink has become an international success story with stores in the UK, US, Europe, and Far East.

• Owens Corning Insulation

Popular phrases that include purple

• Tickled pink: to be happy
• In the pink: in good health -- this phrase hasn't always had this meaning.Pinking shears: scissors with serrated blades
• A pink elephant: term to describe hallucinations during intoxication
• Pinkie finger: the smallest finger on the human hand
• Pink slip: notice that employment is ending
• Pink collar: refers to a particular class of jobs once only filled by women

here's some amazing stuff about pink:
http://www.colormatters.com/body_pink.html
http://www.colormatters.com/colors_pink.html
Pink is not merely a COLOR or something that  add colors to your LIFE. For me it represents my true self, it represents one's attitude. It is more than meet the eyes. So to all damn PINK HAters  get a LIFE freak!  To all PINK lovers, we'll be effin* rockin* every girls and guys, gays closet!