12:15 AM Home

The street was in a mute silence. The cold wind brought chills in my spine. The dark street seemed haunted and yet I was walking down the street weary and wearing my white uniform. I'm about to go home.

... and I wonder how many people, just like me, who can't decide if they wanted to take a step forward or to finally stop and move backward. I wonder how many people, just like me, who can't decide if they wanted to save themselves from drowning or to just loosen the grip and let their selves drown.

Life is full of shit yet you are given no choice but to take it.

Insanity Tuesday

Today, I was supposed to have an afternoon duty. My shift starts at 4pm and ends at 12MN. So supposedly, I have to set my alarm clock at 2 or 2:30 pm and I must set off at 3pm sharp so that I won't be late.

But...

Because I was too insane, I set it on 3pm. In between naps, I woke up and even check my phone, it was 2:30 pm there yet I said, the alarm hasn't rang yet. When it's 3 pm, the alarm rang. I prep myself out and I'm about to go, all in my white suit. I was about to step out from our house when I checked my phone again to see what time is it. It says 3:10 PM. I paused, in deep thinking, even deeper thinking and booom! Crap! I was late! All this time. I felt that I was the most insane person on that time.

In the end, I end up unpacking my things, unwearing my clothes and I went back to sleep just where I was supposed to be. Silly me!

Monday Ranting

What's the point of meeting half way when you are the judge and the jury. I was persecuted without you hearing my side. I tried to calm down, explain my part but you never listened. Perhaps, I was never really that important to you but you have to consider that it hurts me, every second of it to know that you are mad at me.